This is random but I found it halfway done and went ahead and wrote some more. I think it’s rather silly. But sharing cause, well embarrassment and rejection helps me grow. And if someone by chance agreed that would make me feel good too. So I can’t go wrong? lol. It’s nothing really I wrote long time ago, tried to remember what I was thinking back then. Thank goodness I’m naive and/or dumb enough to read over all the “useless shit” and “waste my time.” All I hear is “you’re wasting your time” Ann, from everyone! Obviously it is my time to waste? So why would one care to tell someone else that? Usually it’s someone like _______, so that explains a lot! Just so everyone knows, if you tell me NOT to do something, I’m going to do it. It’s just human nature. So best if you just DON’T tell me how to be or live my life? Mmmkay?Because what you create as a story for someone, they fill that story out in your life no matter what the reality truly is. If your fine with being that subjective, then OK I guess. But I long for the objective truth every second of the day. No advice I’ve ever been given, even the most well intentioned, was ever very helpful. Cause the person can never see the inside of you like you can, they may see 90% of you (if they got really close) and assume, but I’m saying maybe we should only take advice from our center, or own soul? That would put advice columnist out of business and critics, but oh well. Y’all know how I think alternative media has been co-opted, like everything. I am thinking now that the only way to get the truth is from within. It makes being lazy impossible, but the next “alternative media” the true alternative media is the individual mind itself. I think the mind will soon become the FILTER for bullshit. I think that’s how it might of been way back, I mean way way back. Before “specialists” came alonf for sure. So trust yourself over others. But also watch for your own BS. Never trust the BS of others or your own BS. And never be 100% sure of anything, cause then you stop searching. Never stop searching, you will always find BS somewhere that you are believing. That’s what keeps us young they say too. I mean it all works for good. If what you are doing is not good for you personally then no matter how many people tell you that you are helping them and others you really aren’t in the long run. Until you control your own world and personal life and take responsibility and don’t blame others for personal issues, then you shouldn’t really be out there spreading “truth” or energy towards others. I mean objectiveness is hard, but it’s not THIS hard. Do yourself a favor and let your mind go completely retard, yes I said it. Never go full retard in public, but within yourself go ahead. Dare to be naive. There is no one judging you but yourself so let go of society’s opinions and develop your own philosophy about life and live it. If it works, others will catch on much quicker that way than by teaching or preaching it to them. I don’ t know if that made sense. lol

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